My best friend lives with a woman and her three kids. My friend is driven crazy by those kids (they are out of control and need more adult supervision) and the woman (doesn't parent the way my friend thinks she should and is needy and irresponsible) and wants to move very very much. My friend - MM - also has a good friend who spends lots of time with her and her roommates. MM is a little confused about her friend and the relationship she is developing with the roommate and her kids. I am jealous and feel left out and insecure. Why hasn't the roommate bonded with me? I must not be good enough or interesting enough. What am I lacking that makes the roommate not want to be MY friend?

My mature, realistic side realizes that I work nights and can't spend lots of time hanging out with roommate and her kids. It knows that since I don't drink or smoke-up, roommate and I don't have lots in common. And it knows that since I believe that the people you surround yourself with influence the person you are, I wouldn't WANT to be close friends with roommate. The lonely child who is afraid of rejection and wants approval from everyone just wants to pout...

On other notes: my to-do list for 2004 (I am SOO late with this and haven't yet gotten my master list of questions done - more on that later):

2004 To-Do List

Back Patio (re-do table, paint floor, hang deco on joist)
Organize Closets
Organize Storage Areas
Get/Keep House Clean and Organized
Do well in school
Learn to Meditate
Learn to make paper
Decorate Bathrooms
Re-do Kitchen
Garden
Down size/simplify


I am having a hard time getting my master list of questions to address written, let alone posted. I think that I am avoiding getting it done, because they will be hard questions to formulate let alone answer. It would be much easier to get together a list of things that I want to do if I ever win lotto, but not quite as productive

I want to work on:

What do I like? (Music, food, colors, books, etc) I think it will help me figure things out to have at least a starting point with these things...
What do I feel about my marriage?
What do I want for my future?
What do I want for my kids?
What kind of mother do I want to be?
What do I want people to say about me when I die?

I know there is more, and that this list needs refinement, but this is at least a start...