So, my husband is sick today - says his stomach hurts and that he's been throwing up, so he stayed home today. Personally, I think it was an excuse to stay in bed and sleep and watch TV, which we all need some times and I am fine with. I have a raging ear infection, which I get about 5 times a year or so, but I am on meds and working through it...

I have decided to come up with some topics to hit on this year with this blog. I need to work through some personal issues and find myself a bit... I have great resolutions for the new year (some of which would be broken if I weren't planning to implement them in stages), and I am going to use this to work on them, too. They are:

1 Be nice to Eli. Upon personal reflection, I realize that I'm using Eli as a scapegoat for way too many things in my life. Yes, he is lazy and apathetic. But he was lazy and apathetic when I met him, and things haven't and will not change - so I need to accept that and work with it and stop using him as an excuse for everything negative in my life.
2 Stop letting my anger affect my children. I remember clearly how scary and imposing my father was when he was angry, and I see that look sometimes in Kassidy's eyes when I am hurrying and stressed out. I don't want to be the cause of that look any more.
3 Be more purposeful in my daily life and major decisions. I often forget to look at the long term effects of my every day decisions, and I need to be more aware of what I am doing long term.
4 Get to know myself better. I realized the other day (it was one of those realizations that I have occasionally, nothing new), that I really don't know myself - I need to engage in some self reflection and figure me out.
5 Take better care of my house. 'Nuff said.
6 Take better care of myself. Again - 'nuff said.
7 Actually keep a journal and a to-do list and work on whittling it down.

I am now going to find my ear drops and go to bed... I will formulate my master plan and start coming up with my list of questions tomorrow...

-jodi-