I'm sitting here this afternoon - a pile of laundry sitting beside me waiting to be folded and a house badly in want of cleaning. Instead of taking care of either of these things, I am sitting on my couch alternating between working out my feelings about my daughter and school and playing with my 4 month old son.

My daughter is six and smart as a whip. She's been reading for two years and is full of all sorts of arcane facts about everything from dinosaurs to the solar system. She also has high funtioning autism and is quite a difficult child to have in a classroom. She has no concept of personal boundries or social rules, and is the MOST stubborn person I've ever met.

Right now, she attends a local Lutheran school where they treat her with love, respect, and more patience then I can ever hope to have. She is happy and comfortable and life is OK. She is also in a classroom where most of the other kids are behind her educationally and are still struggling with the concept of the letter F.

So I struggle with the idea of moving her from this safe haven, where the kids are nice to her and the teachers and staff all like her, to a public school. I am torn between pushing her intellectually and keeping her safe, and I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

My son is 4 months old and starting to fuss - looks like my self indulgent inner turmoil will need to be cut short for now.

-jodi-